Day 13 of Realigning My Subconscious with My Joy - The Struggle

I seriously thought this would be a lot easier than it really has become. I seem to have hit a wall.

You may be following this 30 Day Challenge  because of this post - Realigning My Joy through My Subconscious.

I had two messages to myself that I had to repeat every morning when I woke up and when I went to bed.

They were: (excerpt from original post)

The bed-time message to my subconscious is:

“I will let go of any worries and relax every muscle before and during my sleep.”

The reason I picked this is because I’ve been holding on to my stress as I’m settling down for bed. It causes me to have trouble falling asleep and waking up with a stiff neck, jaw, and/or back.

My morning message to my subconscious which I will tape to my mirror is:

“Every interaction has some joy in it. It’s up to me to find the joy and possibly expand on these feelings.”

I picked this message because I catch myself, very often, wanting the experience I am presently in to be different instead of accepting it for everything it is.


I’ve been posting my updates on Work Happy Now’s Facebook page and my Twitter account. I've wanted to post more regular on my Google+ account, but this hasn't become a habit for me yet.

I’m doing this because I felt like I wasn’t in control while I slept. Now I feel like the more control I try to grasp the farther this exercise gets away from me.

Crash

At first I felt like I was floating on big fluffy clouds after Day 7 from just a simple mantra each morning and afternoon. It seemed too good to be true.

I guess it was.

Reality has crashed on top of me.

I seem to have lost with how to proceed.

I feel like I’ve gone backwards. I’m trying too hard instead of just watching and learning as I do this exercise.

I woke up this morning with a stiff neck. This 30 day challenge was supposed to improve how I dealt with my stress not make it worse.

Next

Do I recite these above phrases more?

Do I give up?

I felt so wonderfully alive for the first 7 days.

Just because I hit a little wall it doesn’t mean it’s over.

Right?

Maybe this is just a new way for me to become stronger.

I see old patterns bubbling back up. I make a little progress, I set the bar higher, can't reach the new level and I get frustrated. Do you do this as well?

Sorry I don’t have more answers and aha moments for you. Hopefully next time. I'm trying to be as forthcoming with this challenge as I can be, while also finding teachables.

Have you been playing along? Are you doing your own 30 day challenge? Let us know in the comment section.

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